Looking very underage-teenager-going-off-to-fight-in-the-first-world-war in that last photo!
okay with hindsight maybe it was a mistake to put cayenne AND ginger AND paprika AND black pepper AND that really hot Chinese chilli mix AND sweet chilli sauce into this stir-fry wheeeeeeen I have three half-healed mouth ulcers
Read stuff from last week’s workshop (tomorrow)
- Eat (hopefully today at some point)
Agenda for Nerdverse committee (tomorrow)
- Anatomy reading (Thursday)
- Check AbFab minutes (can’t do until they’re up on fb)
- Draw up timetable (no deadline, but soon)
- 50 SoS (no deadline)
- Fill out DSA (no deadline, but soonish)
- Pyramid Head (no deadline)
- EoS chapter (no deadline)
- WGIYH chapter (no deadline)
- Arabic work (no deadline)
Do I make those phone calls? Get food so I can take medicine? Can I manage to do both? So many choices like this.
and then that moment of sinking realisation when you’ve spent that last spoon on trying to decide what to do with your last spoon
huh.. i had always pictured him as sort of swarthy.. doesn’t really jibe with the books’ repeated mention of cornflour blue eyes but eh.. and yeah no roland attempting to smile would be just like a grimace meant to be polite but he’s seen too much an
Yeah, I kind of figure him as… well, kind of as the apex of the whole “American melting pot” idea. Like I said last night that in my head he looks a lot like Sitting Bull, and thedreadvampy pointed out Lee van Cleef also has a bit of the Roland about him… but the whole reason I started doing these sketches was in an attempt to pin down how I picture him. (I’m failing)
Like, I have very strong images of Jake and Susannah and Callahan (especially Susannah, who in my mind will always just look like a darker-skinned Gina Torres) and I can get those down easily or at least pin down who they look like (young Thomas Sangster, Gina Torres, and pre-Who William Hartnell crossed with Ian McKellen, respectively). And I have a very nebulous image of Eddie, which has never been pinned down for some reason. But Roland… Roland is there in my head, with the same face all the time, but it’s not one person’s face and I can’t get it right, in description or in drawings.
But what I know about him is: his hair is true black, not the dark brown that passes for black, and doesn’t bleach in the sun; he has hella cheekbones which have a definite Native American look to them; he looks a bit of all ethnicities but most strongly Hispanic and Native; his hair is wavy but his beard is straight; he’s all leg and his hip’s about halfway up most people’s ribs (he’s actually pretty short sitting); he has a big beak of a nose but it’s very straight; part of the reason those eyes stick out so much is that his skin is about the same shade of brown as his gunbelt, and not all of that is from the sun.
all that is just stuff I know about the Roland in my head, so when in canon Detta calls him white I’m kind of instinctively going YEAH BUT NO THOUGH
though tbh it jives with what we know of Detta that if a not-visibly-black man with blue eyes is antagonising her she’s going to jump to “honky sumbitch”
and with what we know of Susannah that she’d riff on that
he’s also described as ghostly pale when he’s ill but I figure that means the sort of greyish pallor you get even with brown skin
(also he does smile for real, I think. Just not often and not when people are looking, especially in the first few books. And it’s always got that sad edge to it, because happy-Roland basically died in Hambry. like. Roland smiling is rarely if ever Roland smiling for himself, but for something he’s lost and other people might still have )
trying to draw Roland smiling (not crazy-smiling but the sort of sad one described as “oddly beautiful”) and man
smiling Roland just feels wrong